For the past 50 days, I’ve been feeling an odd dripping wet sensation in my head—like it’s inside my brain. Sometimes there is a coolness to it and other times it’s a normal temp. Also there are moments where there is tension, and other times it’s just this dripping wet feeling.
This Trickling Liquid Sensation In My Head Has Been Constant
And at times it drives me crazy. My only relief has been when I sleep.
When it first started, I experienced another scary symptom. I jolted awake with a small, throbbing area on the top/left side of my scalp. Like I was pulling hairs out in that tiny isolated area. There also was the sensation of water being inside my skull in that same spot. It lasted for a couple hours, and I mentally had to fight through panicked thoughts the entire time.
I did some breathing exercises, took half of a Valium, and sipped a little wine (my vice for just about everything—the wine, not the valium!)…and eventually I fell back asleep.
The next morning, those sensations were gone—but not my imagination about it. If you’re experiencing these “water in my brain and/or throbbing hair-pulling sensations” then you know just how scary your thoughts can get about them. Easier said then done, but you gotta try your best not to let those thoughts run wild and get some form of control over them. Like I said, easier said than done…but not impossible.
My motto for many years has been to try and figure things out holistically before going to a doctor. So that’s what I did. I had surgery back in February and there was a medication that I’d recently started taking that was supposed to help my body heal better. I stopped taking it right then and there. I’m not a fan of taking meds unless I absolutely have to, and if this medication was causing these scary sensations then whatever help it could possibly offer just wasn’t worth it to me.
*My policy on my blog is to share resources that I’ve personally found helpful and informing for you and other people to use as a starting point for your own research, and to make your own decisions with the care of your doctor.*
Almost a week passed without any throbbing, dripping feelings in my head and I thought I was in the clear. I’d convinced myself it was those meds and everything was better…until that nasty, scary feeling came back. Only this time, no more hair-pulling feelings—just constant water in my head. Sometimes it feels cool, sometimes just wet. Sometimes it is on the top/left, and other times it is at the top/back or top/front. I wipe at my forehead and across the sides as if water (or sweat) is dripping down it. But nothing’s there. It’s totally inside my skull.
I literally thought I had an aneurism or a brain tumor—or both. I mean, what the hell else could it be?
So I started looking up symptoms for aneurisms and tumors…I even nonchalantly asked a friend who’d just recently survived a horrible aneurism (she is seriously a miracle and her story gives me goose bumps). She told me she’d had headaches (some severe) and right before the actual aneurism she said it felt like a brain-freeze, that feeling you get in your head when you eat something frozen too fast.
Well, I wasn’t having headaches and that “cool water” feeling definitely wasn’t as if I’d eaten ice cream too fast. Some of the other symptoms I’d Googled (nausea, delusional, etc.) also did not apply to my particular creepy-ass situation.
All I feel is a dripping wet sensation that’s sometimes cool (not freezing). Sometimes there is a throbbing feeling, but not that pulling-hair feeling that occurred in the beginning. Just the wet head feeling that is at times super tense and other times more subtle. But always there. It’s making me fucking crazy.
And since I have no idea what the hell “this” is even called, I started researching “dripping in my head” and “cool wet sensation inside my head.” Here are some of the articles that came up:
Wet feeling in head
This shunting action can cause the skin, or parts of the skin, to feel cold and/or wet. Experiencing skin that feels cold and wet is a common sensation associated with an active stress response.
You’ve got to be kidding me? This whole thing could be stress? After reading through so many other similar experiences and how the ones that did go to a doctor never figured out what it was, and to make it worse was told that they were perfectly fine…oh my gosh, all of that triggered a memory of a horrible time in my life when I had constant panic attacks. About a half dozen ER visits all came back with a big fat nothing. I was told the same shit—“there is nothing wrong with you, here let me write you (another) script for Xanax.”
I was able to heal those damn panic attacks by reducing sugar in my diet and adding in probiotics. I’d never gotten another one. But this whole “head” thing going on has surely gotten me pretty close to one. It’s scary as hell!
I was at a moment since I hadn’t dropped dead from this “brain condition” yet, then it was time to start treating it as if it could really be stress-related.
All of us have stress—new stress, old stress, repressed stress. We all suffer from our own bullshit thoughts. Here’s a quote from The Subtle Art Of Not Giving A Fuck that totally hit the nail on the head (ha, I’ve even thought of hitting myself in the head to make this feeling stop).
“Life itself is a form of suffering. The rich suffer because of their riches. The poor suffer because of their poverty. People without a family suffer because they have no family. People with a family suffer because of their family. People who pursue worldly pleasures suffer because of their worldly pleasures. People who abstain from worldly pleasures suffer because of their abstention.”
It goes on to say,
“Problems never stop; they merely get exchanged and/or upgraded. Happiness comes from solving problems. The keyword here is “solving.” If you’re avoiding your problems or feel like you don’t have any problems, then you’re going to make yourself miserable. If you feel like you have problems that you can’t solve, you will likewise make yourself miserable.”
And taking it a little deeper…
“Happiness is a constant work-in-progress, because solving problems is a constant work-in-progress—the solutions to today’s problems will lay the foundation for tomorrow’s problems, and so on. True happiness occurs only when you find the problems you enjoy having and enjoy solving.”
So I put on my problem-solving hat—what’s bothering me? What’s hurting me right now? And what the fuck can I do about it?
I’m guilty of holding things inside. Vulnerable things that if spoken, I feel terrified to have admitted them. I observed how that was causing some turmoil in some of my relationships. It’s a total red flag for me if I take a little space (which in my opinion is perfectly fine…a little space helps me calm down and not feel so reactive about a hot situation) and then instead of feeling ready to face the issue, I’d rather push further away. I find that too much space can sometimes hurt the relationship.
Since it’s easier for me to write things down (I journal quite a bit about stuff that sometimes never gets shared, but it still feels better to get it out) so I grabbed my journal and started writing letters to the people that things had been building up pretty bad inside me. People I love deeply and want to have a relationship with. I got all my feelings out and with shaky fingers, hit the “send” button.
There, done. I got it all out. I pushed through my vulnerability and shared my inner feelings.
I hate to say it, but I still feel that pesky, crazy wet sensation in my head. For two days it calmed down where it was super minimal—I was really busy and didn’t have a moment to think about it. Maybe that helped? I know it had to because when I overthink about it, it only gets worse.
I’d hoped to have found a solution to share with you, but as of now I don’t have one. But what I can do is let you know you’re not alone. I feel it too. There are moments I feel close to a breakdown because it’s so scary. I just gotta keep my mind focused on something else. That’s really what seems to work the best. Finding out so many others are going through this has also been helpful. Perhaps therapy could be an option? If this keeps up I may end up giving that a try.
For me, I’ve linked it to stress and perhaps I’m at a personal and spiritual growth area in my life—perhaps there’s something big I’m about to learn. Perhaps after I have that breakthrough this “wet head” feeling will go away forever. God, I hope so. I pray that for you and me and everyone else going through this.
I’m not a big believer of coincidence…there is something to learn and grow from this whole thing. You’re not alone. I’m right here with you. As I continue to push through this situation, I’ll update this post with anything at all that I find helpful.
So far what’s helped me the best are my various breathing exercises, listening to music, praying, drinking wine, reading, keeping busy with work stuff and my house chores (plus I have some extra house stuff happening right now too that perhaps is adding to my stress but also keeping me pretty damn busy), playing with my bulldog, and spending time with family and friends. I see a beach trip coming up in the near future and I anticipate that’ll be helpful too as I love the beach.
UPDATE #1: Two days ago, my husband gave me a deep tissue massage in my neck and shoulders. I had knots galore and at times there were tears in my eyes when he’d press his elbow into those areas. But afterward, I felt so much relief…And that water sensation feeling went away. So far these two days of not feeling that creepy dripping water sensation have been a godsend. At the end of the week, I’ll update further as to how I feel and if that horrible sensation is still gone. Oh, I hope so!
UPDATE #2: It’s been a little over 2 weeks and that dripping wet feeling returned a few times. I got a neck/shoulder massage every time it came back to ease the sensation. So far, the super deep tissue massage seems to be the biggest help, even though at times the massage itself is painful. There are tension knots throughout the right side of my neck and down into my right shoulder blade. Light massaging isn’t enough—my hubby uses his elbow to grind down into those areas and afterward there is so much relief…the dripping wet head sensation is mostly gone. There are times it’s very subtle, so subtle that I have to focus on it to feel it, and additional massaging so far helps with that.
If you’re going through this—and I’m assuming you are if you’ve gotten all the way down here on this post—then I’d love to hear from you if there’s anything working for you that’s helping. Anything at all. Nothing is too crazy. If the massage doesn’t work for the longterm, I’ll literally try anything else to help this feeling go away.
To figuring this out together,